Some days I wonder what’s in store for me when I wake up before my alarm clock after a night full of wicked, crazy, sordid dreams. Some days I wonder what I will find when I come home since Murphy is so anxious that he often gets into things he shouldn’t. Sometimes I wonder if things will get better before they get worse. I’ve dealt with a lot over the last month and a half, and it’s not been fun, it’s not been pleasant, but there’s been a few silver linings. I hang onto those silver linings with all I’ve got though because I don’t know when the next one’s coming.
My foot is still bothering me to the point that I fear a stress fracture. I am going to the doctor tomorrow in hopes of an x-ray and exam to determine what’s causing this sharp pain when I take a step. It comes and goes, but it’s been going on long enough to cause concern now. This is only one minor thing in comparison to all the other things I have going on in my life…. And I hate that all these other things are so big that they are influencing my whole self… not just a minor bother, but me, as a whole, my personality, and my well-being. I am so thankful that I am at least not sick!
Murphy and I went for a 4 mile run tonight in the on again, off again rain, and kept up a steady pace. I know we were going pretty fast because my calves were tight, but I just wanted to go with it, so I just stayed with what his pace was, and let the calves be tight. I’m getting to that point where I want to run, but I don’t. After this half marathon, I may need a good week off just because. One day at a time right now….
“I’ve learned there are troubles of more than one kind. Some come from ahead, others come from behind. But I’ve bought a big bat. I’m all ready, you see. Now my troubles are going to have trouble with me.” – Dr. Seuss